Slowly, as most things go, I’ve been learning to love myself. Like, REALLY love myself. Appreciating the little things about me, looking in the mirror and being happy with the woman staring back at me, being proud of how far I’ve come. It has been a long time coming and I’m glad it’s finally here.
I feel like all the parts of my life are finally fitting together in a way that I’ve always wanted. It’s almost too good to be true. I am living life in the moment instead of stressing over things in the future (for the most part). Nothing is ever perfect, but I am actually happy with the person who looks back at me from the mirror.
I’ve learned a lot the past few weeks about friendship, love, what’s important in my life and what I want to keep manifesting in it. I think that I’m getting to an amazing place and I am finally enjoying my life the way that brings the right kind of people and energy in. I am connecting with my friends in ways that I didn’t think were possible and I am happier than I have ever been despite everything that has happened the past 4-5 months.
I think I finally understand the meaning of self love and the importance of it. I have accepted that every person I’ve been with in my life served a purpose and helped me learn more about myself. I realize that I’ve spent so much time agonizing in the negatives of everything that happened to me in my life that I have lost precious time I could’ve been learning and growing from those experiences and now I’m playing catch up from the past 10 years.
Understand that everything in your life happens for a reason and it is the biggest eye opener. You have to really believe it though. Not just say it without FULLY understanding it. For so many years I agreed that there were reasons for the things that were happening to me, but I wasn’t trying to understand or learn from those things and instead wallowed in the agony of the multiple defeats I was experiencing.
Be open. Let things happen to you. Good, bad, ugly. Live life and love it. As always thank you for reading.