I know it has been quite a while since I have been here with you all. There have been a lot of different things happening in my life that I can barely keep track of let alone update on. I … Continue reading Manifesting continued…
Everything I’ve ever wanted is finally coming true. Everything I’ve hoped for is finally lining itself up for me. The hard times are breaking. My time is here. I am so thankful for everything the universe has gifted me. I want to cry thinking about how far I’ve actually come. There’s so much more on the way and I’m so excited for it. I can’t wait to share it will you all. Continue reading Manifesting Pt. 5
It’s funny how every time I find myself actually trying for a relationship the fear creeps its way in. I am almost always looking for an excuse to run away or make up scenarios in my head and ruin a … Continue reading It’s the ‘unlearning’ for me…
I had a lot of time to reflect, and also realize some things on my sad drive back to Utah. I have to remember that I’m the whole package. That I deserve someone who doesn’t leave me on edge or read all day. Who actually wants to get to know me and talk to me. Granted I only just met the poor guy, but it really stuck with me. How you treat someone is taken very different ways. For someone with a lot of trauma, being treated nicely and told certain things can make me feel many different emotions at … Continue reading Manifesting Pt. 4
I think I have the unfortunate habit of self sabotaging any and all personal relationships where I start feeling any sort of attachment or softness. After being treated so badly and always left like I was nothing, it is hard … Continue reading Leave before you love me
Sometimes I get overwhelmed. I don’t know if I’m on the right track, I don’t know if I’m doing everything I’m supposed to be doing. A lot of the time I can follow my gut. I can feel when something … Continue reading It’s all in the cards
Every day I lose a little bit. I lose time, energy, sometimes I wonder if life is slipping through my fingers. I have to remember that there is a reason my life is going the way it is. There is … Continue reading Dreaming…
I wish I had met you years ago. Or maybe I don’t. I wish I had met you when I still had a chance to avoid all this heartbreak. Before I hated who I was and before you did what … Continue reading Love you five ever
Having your head stuck in the clouds only gets you so far in this life. Fantasizing about all the things you could have or want only makes the life you’re living more miserable. Why wouldn’t you go after what you … Continue reading Reality is better
