It’s funny how every time I find myself actually trying for a relationship the fear creeps its way in. I am almost always looking for an excuse to run away or make up scenarios in my head and ruin a … Continue reading It’s the ‘unlearning’ for me…

I think I have the unfortunate habit of self sabotaging any and all personal relationships where I start feeling any sort of attachment or softness. After being treated so badly and always left like I was nothing, it is hard … Continue reading Leave before you love me

Sometimes I get overwhelmed. I don’t know if I’m on the right track, I don’t know if I’m doing everything I’m supposed to be doing. A lot of the time I can follow my gut. I can feel when something … Continue reading It’s all in the cards

Every day I lose a little bit. I lose time, energy, sometimes I wonder if life is slipping through my fingers. I have to remember that there is a reason my life is going the way it is. There is … Continue reading Dreaming…

I wish I had met you years ago. Or maybe I don’t. I wish I had met you when I still had a chance to avoid all this heartbreak. Before I hated who I was and before you did what … Continue reading Love you five ever

Having your head stuck in the clouds only gets you so far in this life. Fantasizing about all the things you could have or want only makes the life you’re living more miserable. Why wouldn’t you go after what you … Continue reading Reality is better

I am slowly growing the life I’ve always dreamed of. It’s weird to look at sometimes. There are days that are slower than others, but I am sure not to revert back to the old ways. Constantly growing and upgrading … Continue reading Blissful State