I’ve been so scared to actually do what I want in my life because I feel like I’ve epically failed at everything up to this point. Do I constantly put myself down and talk myself out of doing something I love because I’m afraid of failure or do I take the leap? I’m miserable with myself and I’m tired of waking up doing the same thing over and over. Hopefully this is the real first step towards change and I can allow myself to let go of my anxiety about everything. Continue reading Take a leap

The past week or two have felt like lifetimes. Sometimes it seems like I’m stuck in an endless loop. Just wanted to let you all know you aren’t alone if you feel the same. Kind of a random rant, but also felt like I needed to get it off my chest. Thanks for being with me. “What would you do if you were stuck in one place and every day was exactly the same and nothing that you did mattered?” – Groundhog Day Continue reading In the feelz

It’s funny how life catches up to you when you least expect it. I’ve spent so much time running that I’ve finally had to stop and catch my breath and that’s where it found me. Winded and exhausted and anxious. I rarely allow myself to feel any sort of joy or excitement for things these days since I’ve had so much trauma surrounding happy things. This is how I’m trying to remedy that. It’s not always one step forward three steps back. Sometimes it’s ten steps back or a marathon forward. Either way, we all have to start somewhere. Even … Continue reading Anything by ralph waldo emerson…