While it might feel like my world is ending, understandably as I have been in the same place for almost two years, there is a lot I have had time to reflect on and deal with. My therapist told me … Continue reading The end of another loooooong chapter
It’s not like any thing I’ve ever gone through before. To look at a past love like an old friend. To talk about them mostly in a fond manner when there is zero contact. Generally I’d be bitter. More angry … Continue reading The good stuff
As I continue the process of leaving Korea and also processing my recent heartache, I’ve found that I have a lot of reservations and anxiety about this change. I’m not sure I’m ready for what comes after this, I’m not sure what I’m going to do or have not made my mind up on options. I feel lost almost. Like when I was in college living out of my car barely making ends meet. It’s uncomfortable and I’m still dealing with all of that. My heart hurts. I want to give up and exceed every boundary at the same time. … Continue reading Anxious
Just a quick life update. I felt like I should show my face even though I was just waiting for my phone to charge before going to the gym. Caught up with a friend at dinner and talked through some things after. It’s sad, but I have to keep reminding myself that I am allowed to have feelings because they have been invalidated my whole life. Or I was being told how to feel about things. I’ve lived my life so long being guilty about how I felt about different situations and I am trying to get better control over … Continue reading It’s okay to not be okay
Seems fitting now that as some things come to an end there are new things blossoming under the surface. I never imagined that this is what my life was going to look like a year ago. It’s a bit terrifying … Continue reading A beautiful ending
It’s a little bit cruel how the universe finds a way to send you all these people who are meant to teach you things, but not meant to stay. There has been a parade of people in and out of … Continue reading Mr. Right
It’s funny if you really think about it. All the things you learned from the different people you have been with in your lifetime. Personally, I’m tired of all the life lessons, but I’m sure they’re “leading me to something … Continue reading Lessons learned…
How devastating it is to never feel good enough. Constantly trying hard for everyone around you and still feeling mediocre. Maybe that comes from within. The part of you that doesn’t need validation from other people and that thrives on … Continue reading The curse
Seems inherently human nature to want to have your cake and eat it too. Who doesn’t like having options and choices? Why should we have to choose between two things if we could have both? Why do people choose monogamy … Continue reading Love, Emily
It’s funny how there is a general social cue that after a break up there is usually a glow up. You get into a comfortable rhythm with the person you’re with. Maybe you lag on your trips to the gym … Continue reading The glow up
Life As I Know It 